Blogging should be the perfect platform for me. Since childhood, I have always liked to write. Not necessarily because I am crazy good at it, but because it is often the only way I can process my thoughts. In my introverted nature, writing has at times been a way for me to communicate… to share my voice when I felt like I had no other way. Maybe I should say, I have always needed to write. With every ounce of my fiber, I believe all people would do better to spend time reflecting on what they are learning. This is precisely the purpose and meaning behind “In the White Space.”
So, why are there 123 notes in my Evernote notebook called “Thoughts to Blog” and only five on my actual blog space?
This isn’t the first time I have written about the difficulty of blogging. My first post was about taking baby steps toward the blogging life. At first, my biggest barrier was myself, and the fear of putting myself out there. I was dealing with those and then was faced with something new. Without going into details, I experienced an attitude about blogs that I wasn’t prepared for. One that asserted blogging was inconsequential because it wasn’t professionally edited or backed by research. Hmm. This first made me mad because it demeaned, without knowing it, the incredible professional growth I have experienced over the last few years as I have learned from countless education bloggers. Then it made me think. What if putting myself out there caused others to see me in a light that was less than professional?
From the time I can remember, my mom has used the phrase, “You wear your heart on your sleeve” to describe me. Most of the time, I am okay with that and see it as a mark of being a passionate person. However, when negative opinions about things that have changed who I am as a teacher and even as a person, cause me to pull back – I really dislike that heart wearing sleeve girl.
In the end, I am okay with putting myself out there and even making mistakes. I have a voice, no matter how small (did you just hear Dr. Seuss?) that might help another small voice somewhere. At the very least, I will have learned more by reflecting and writing about my experiences and readings – books, journal articles, and yes… even blogs.
So, whomever may be reading this, it is what it is. A place…
To reflect, process and share my journey.
Where I might make grammatical mistakes or click publish before my writing has been proofread three times.
To share what I have learned in the classroom with real students.
That welcomes responses and refinement on ideas or practices.
Where I can grow.
To make you think or even blog.