baby steps… baby steps…

If you do not recognize this quote from the classic comedy What About Bob?  Watch it!  It is a classic must-watch comedy.

It is not that I didn’t want to start a blog. I really did! No one was trying to talk me into blogging (except all the other blogs I found myself drawn to). I have always enjoyed writing. I encourage eleven and twelve-year-old kids to write each day and have even set up blogs for them. Still, I have had the hardest time writing this first post.

I started thinking about what was holding me back. Perfectionism? Fear of being transparent; of not meeting someone’s standard, or worse yet, my own? Time constraints? Intimidation by the uber-bloggers I glean so much from? Honestly, it could be any or all of these at any given time. This self-reflection eventually lead me to think about what holds my students back when I ask them to think outside of the box, or simply give their thoughts on a topic. How often have I been asked of a twelve-year-old if her answer is right, or where he can find an answer in the book after I have given them an open-ended question with thought being the only measure of right or wrong?

Sometimes, I wonder if my love for middle school students stems from the fact that I can still so easily go back there… to that place of insecurity somewhere between the freedom of childhood and those first tastes of understanding your purpose and passion in life. Those places in life that we all still find ourselves on occasion where all we can do is take baby steps, because anything else is overwhelming. Thankfully, I no longer have to live there in the middle of it. This side of many years of living, learning and loving enables me to look past all of those obstacles to my goal, knowing I will survive rejection and disappointment.

The fact remains that I have classrooms of students who are still living there. My goal, my passion is to help them see glimpses of who they are meant to be and to help them become comfortable with their voice. Some of them will need to take baby steps at first, until those things that seem so difficult can be done in full stride. I understand completely.

There it is. It is a beginning. I will not claim anything else for this post, except that it is the start line…. baby steps… baby steps… I did it! I wrote my first post!